Absolute Silence

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 23:18:14 GMT

wow, been a while... been busy with RAing. so far so good. cept i think im doing a bad job considering not everyone knows each other in the house. other than that, academic has been a rollercoaster. doing decent with biochem, doing alright with SEA...but i have to finish my research paper. phy sci has been a disaster. did not do that well with the midterm.... and this one i just did, i didnt finish. urgh... thanksgiving is coming up. have to finish my dental apps. im kind of screwed. people are getting interviews already, and i still have to turn in my secondary for ucla, ucsf, and arizona. we'll see what happens with dental... kind of scared now. need to do my paper now... maybe i'll update some other time

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 07:44:03 GMT

after 2 weeks of training, countless hours of decorating, posting up posters, making door decs, and getting drilled by returning RAs, in 7 hours, i will find out if it was all worth it. i will become an RA for real now. kind of a scary thought. my room is still undecorated... and im a little behind on programming and getting everything together... looks like i might be needing to make some changes. craziness.... aiieee...

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 09:08:09 GMT

hmmm... past few days has been intense with training. intense is the word. maybe boring as well. basically the days have been 9-9 or close to that. wake up early to go to training, eat, training some more, and then eat, and then go back to some sort of boring training. most of the training is repeat of what it was last year... but some of it is new because of RA training. the new stuff isnt all that bad. bcd was intense. i liked that a lot... pretty real situation. i wish we had more practice on that. what else... late night door dec parties. and waking up early and falling asleep in lecture.

today is the first day we were able to move into our permanent residence... for the next academic year i'll be in canyon point. meeting a lot of orl-ers. fairly cool people. our team is mostly pretty cool staff. there is a few that are...blah. one PA is like..what are you doing? and then one SL has been missing training until now, which i think is unfair to ronny and chirag who are in the same situation. im kind of just worried about reimbursements and if she's able to do her job because she's been missing out on all this training... anyways, bare room... first night of being able to not do anything... kinda scary... ok. good night

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 07:44:56 GMT

wow, first day of training for me, it's the second day for all the other RAs, but dang... tired... 9 am - 11 pm of doing orl stuff... my life is going to be over as i know it. there was some chill time in between to watch the US Open where roddick defeated yourzny and sharapova won. hmm, behind closed doors scenarios... one word... intense. that stuff is hard and they throw a lot of different situations out there for you. even though with all this training and prep, it's never enough to become fully prepared. and tried to do some door dec.... omg they take so freaking long. im thinking of just posting a bunch of collages together or something like that.

anyways, done with DATs. satisfied with score? no. enough to get in to dental school? maybe. could have done better? yes. what would have satisfied me? 2 points more on both the academic and PAT section. the PAT is my bread and butter, that stuff i can do... i ran out of time. as well as the quantitative section. o wells, we'll see what happens.

tired... training... intense...

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 07:00:45 GMT

tomorrow, moment of truth

how much i have been slacking off or what not... brain cells i have killed in the past month? will it be worth it? or do i have to repeat this miserable task again sometime in the future? sigh...

helloooo RA training.... sometimes i wish i was a bum... no need to do anything...

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 07:20:34 GMT

warning: venting entry

stressed....

damn DATs
damn applications

when it's all over...i should be happier... cept right away i start with RA training.

then got to wait for acceptance/rejections from those freaking schools... arugh... messed up big time

anime and youtube are no good... i waste too much time on them... ergh..

personal statement...aoirejga;oijgra;oi

end of vent...

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 08:41:31 GMT

saw annie and jon cheung yesterday. went to qcup and then went to go see a movie because we were that bored. "accepted" is not a bad movie at all. fairly amusing for the most part. and then afterwards talked to annie for the longest time. it's been so long since i was able to tlak to her like that.

today, went to the the temple reunion thing for the camp. was not exactly what i was expecting. spent the first two hours just watching the slide show and videos. it was kind of boring actually. did not want to sit there. would rather be up doing some sort of activity. must change that next year. but we did have a surprising guest... tim wang. havent seen him for ages. it was nice seeing him again and talking to him. he brought some of those games over for us to play... a good host type of person, he's reallie cool. anyways, summer...slow...

drama... no good... i cant believe im wasting my time on that.
DATs...must study and get 20s. goal: at least a 20
applications...blah!

okie good night

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 19:55:37 GMT

so summer session A ended... i must say it went by pretty quickly. the same routine almost everyday... go to class, either stay in ackerman to study biochem or directly go into research where they have taken over my life. all i do is section brains in the crytostat machine and then finally in the last few week stain them and then mount them on slides. but taht's nerd talk. every tues and thurs i would have DAT classes. must say, DATs are kind of easy... i just forgot a lot of the material so i have to relearn everything. the PAT is more of a practice type of deal and everything else i just need to relearn. lets see, oh, and volunteer every once in a while. started to get to know the seniors this year because all the seniors last year graduated. so got to make new contacts to shadow around. other than that...havent reallie been doing much. pretty much just study, hang out in the guy's aptment... like verrie rarely. the guys are always out doing their deloitte thing, working or going out to eat. actually played bball again with daniel, jon, eric, and chi. havent played for a while...it was good to know i could still shoot somewhat. and it was interesting living with 3 girls. i must say i think it was better than living with the guys, considering how messy it is over there. and i wouldnt have had a room, i'd be sleeping on the couch or something. and no reception there either. the onlee plus would be the AC. it was so hot a couple of the days that me and anny would go to starbucks or coffee bean to go study there. nice and chilly. but living with girls isnt that bad. anny would be studying mcats non-stop, so she'd be out all day long. amy has her internship and night class, and then spend time with david. jessica is always upstairs with andrew. so i hardly ever got to see them. but hey, it's all good. we got along. amy and anny did try to teach me how to cook, maybe improved a bit? who knows... and last but not least, hung out with alison a good deal of the time. watching scrubs or some movies. it was cool hanging around her. now, back in norcal.

things to do:
- study for DATs
- register to take the DATs
- shadow Dr. Wu at his office
- get a freaking letter of rec
- finish applications
- maybe go back to FTC to work half day? get some money back...
- enjoy the rest of summer
- oh yeah...hang out with friends

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 06:01:56 GMT

it's quite quiet here at ucla when all the students are gone. like no one is here at all. im walking around on campus...and it's like a ghost town. anyways, i ended up just doing nothing all day yesterday because the cryostat machine was being used. so my supervisor just told me to take the day off and come back today. went to go visit the folks at the dental clinic. it's dead there too, but it's nice to see some familiar faces there. and then afterwards went to go eat lunch with shelly and amy at damon and pythias. the sandwiches are alright, nothing spectacular. maybe i should try something else next time i go out to eat. since there was literally nothing for me to do, i ended up tagging along with shelly to go to ucu to deposit some money for ccdc and then later on go to volcanto tea for some boba. oh, before going to the bank, we had to go back to the aptment, where amy's parents were. they thought i was shelly's brother since they know that her brother drives her around pretty often. do i look that young?? eh.

today was a long day. DATs are great... not reallie. i think my instructor is just a slow teacher. the material we went over, it could have been done in like 1.5 hrs max. there's ntohing much to go over, just say this is what this section is about... do it. and then afterwards went into research to do some cutting on the cryostat. i must say, i am a slow cutter.... however, i will get better at this and work faster. just came back from running. i am attempting to get back into whatever shape it is im suppose to be in... hahaha. anyways, tomorrow, day off. we'll see what i'll end up doing.

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 23:23:22 GMT

raped by DAT diagnostic test... boy am i unprepared. i didnt know anything about the chemistry stuff... was slow on the reading comprehension and math part. i have a lot of work to do during the summer for studying. right now, i am in ackerman food court attempting to study...but i am getting distracted. it's okie though, i have internet. dont have internet in the aptment...which reallie sucks because yeah.. i like the internet. other than that... research, study, class...yay!

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 07:25:23 GMT

year has almost come to an end. for the past couple days, i have become nocturnal. i stay up all night and then sleep during the day. this is not good. i've become quite irritable. today is one of the days where i actually have time to chill for a little bit. took a phy sci final today... not bad... but almost done.. i cant believe my 3rd year is almost done. and then its 4th year. and then graduation. craziness. RA next year... going to be busy... which reminds me, i need to update this more often. so many things have happened in the past...and i dont think i can remember all of them... eh. weekend soon..yay...

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 07:51:31 GMT

long time no update... been busy alot... i technically have a midterm in about 7 hours... lovely... am i going to sleep? who knows? yeah, i've definitely been slacking a lot. why... i need to get my priorities straight. being an SL is taking it's toll...im over it sorta... i dont want to program anymore... tired all the time...i dont know how long i can keep this up. it's a wonder how other people do it... physci 111b midterm today. hopefully i did okie... we'll see...

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 01:23:26 GMT

spring qtr...new qtr... crazy already... long days... btw ucla lost in the NCAA finals. how sad.

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 06:54:37 GMT

mmm... my grades are not looking too good this quarter.. why cant i do well in school? sad times. i compare my gpa to other people...and it's just saddening. i wish i can just start over fresh or pick an easier major. i think my gpa might drop again, gah!!!

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 00:24:07 GMT

ahh, well so a bunch of strangers together and alcohol isnt a good combination. especially if one is packing, and the other one is from west point. must say, night to remember at least. good thing nothing worse happened. someone could have gotten hurt. but definitely this is one night that i've seen the most people drunk and yeah.... oddly enough, i wasnt scared at all. nor was i angry. it's as if i was a robot, and i was invincible, like i wouldnt get hurt at all. what stupid thinking...when someone gets hurt then it's all over. anyways, good times seeing everyone again. saw some random people there as well. like melanie from my orientation group...havent seen her since...hahaha. funnie how we still recognize each other. also mike, who i went partying once with chiara. then we got hamilton, snaps... everyone knows each other. what a small world. had to take care of some people again...like always. but it's all good. i dont mind doing that.

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 02:36:56 GMT

one word to describe this quarter or more like this year... busy. SL stuff has been taking up a lot of time. so have classes and everything else. i dont know how some people do it, they stay on campus for like...12 hrs or something. im tired after 8. gah. well, midterms...blah.. i havent put in as much effort as i did last quarter...and it sucks. hopefully will do better. need to stop screwing around... and study. less games, less tv, less procrastinating, less girl...more books. new laptop finally. looks good. now..just need a case to make sure i protect this baby. hahahah. it's so convenient. anyways, enough said for a short post.

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 08:38:55 GMT

break has been chill... yesterday went shopping for the longest time ever. got some clothes...so wasnt too bad.

today was fairly productive. went to volunteer at the office...then had to take brother to dental and eye appointment. afterwards, i decided to work on the kitchen faucet that was leaking. well, my smart ass kinda made the small problem into a bigger one. all i had to do was to take out the cartidge and change it...somehow i messed up the entire thing. so i had to take the ENTIRE thing out. that took pretty much the entire day. and yes...trial and error is no fun. but, i did get a pleasant surprise. right when i was about to give us... ester and lu came by to say hi. i was quite surprised...totally didnt expect anyone. and ester is my neighbor...yet i dont ever drop by her house. hahahahah...yeah, im a bad neighbor. and yes, i missed ur krn babo-ness. what a day...

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 10:50:28 GMT

i must say...friends are cool...

val's with andrew and daniel and daniel's brother...

flea's house for some catching up and poker...

great seeing friends again

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 07:57:35 GMT

erg...spent the day at home... i tynk im socially inept... now i have a headache...

why do i come home...?

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 10:08:21 GMT

it's over... finally.

about a week of nonstop studying. no joke. this is the most i've studied for ever. sad to say it's probably also my worst qtr.

been a while since i touched livejournal. too much to recap. but this qtr is over. next qtr i will be more of a hermit and study all the time. i will get all As next qtr. get my act together. be home in a few hourish.

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 01:17:47 GMT

sigh... kill me now

2 finals failed... one more to fail.

how sad is this quarter?

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 04:03:46 GMT

been extremely busy... never reallie have the time to update anymore, which kinda sucks. but yeah, being an SL kinda took over my life...well not reallie...but for the past couple of days it has. like all hill halloween. it was chaos, but it was great. success i might add...and all the floors were crazy with their decorations. too bad we had to tear it down within the next day. im kinda sad that i didnt take a more active role in my floor events. i feel like i dont belong on the floor...i spend a lot of time on the second floor actually. eh...i shall make a bigger effort to make friends on the floor. 2 midterms have past since i've last updated. LS4 went fairly well..just a few stupid mistakes. chem on the other hand was a bitch... friday was just a bad day in general. chem exam was no good. had a meeting with the SL staff for some more bad news. and then at work was a pain in the ass. i just wasnt feeling it. hiro's bday party afterwards was chill. just went there to see some familiar faces. nice to hang around some good people. other than that... life has been a blur. classes all the time...it kinda annoys meeh that i have so much lecture time...and then i have to study afterwards. hopefully things will be better in the next week or so.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 07:26:43 GMT

one word that can probably sum up what im feeling right now...frustrated. frustrated in more than one way. i guess one is with academics. im so behind in all my classes now. well, not that behind, but i am. when it comes to quizzes and tests, i can never do well. so im frustrated in that aspect. i just want to do well for once. another frustration is work. it's been annoying...and it's time consuming. why do i still do it? i have no idea. maybe i just like being frustrated a lot by being chewed out from alumni and parents. or maybe im just jaded now..and dont reallie care that much about the job. who knows? another is more recent events. i tend to like things/people that i cant have. maybe im in for the chase? possibly. why cant life be simpler and go my way for once... once would be nice...

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 05:48:22 GMT

still sick, still hanging in there. busy ass days. especially tuesday and weds. so long. keeping busy is good...in a way. i wish i had more time to study tho. being sick is totally a drain on me mentally and physically. so i lost 8 lbs in two weeks. missed a few classes because i couldnt stop coughing. but it's all good for now. things are getting better. just wished i was more...efficient one way or the other. on a brighter note, ucla beat cal 47-40. i totally thought we were going to lose. aside from that, there was a apt 111 get together. good times. good times.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 22:41:45 GMT

im so behind in classes. omg. this qtr is going to be crazy. and im sick right now, so that doesnt make anything better. meetings and programming, fun stuff. and trying to find a decent work study job. anyways, hopefully i'll update more.